blurred feelings.

wow. my often updates became weekly updates and now worse than weekly updates, just occassionally. :( it saddens me that i’m starting to again update very rarely lately. it’s just that school is nearing to a close, only less than a month left and teachers are bombarding students with final papers and a lot of exams. yes i know i still find time to go online and check some things out but i’m not able to update because i have nothing to post about really, because my life lately is about trying to study for exams and actually more on fangirling now.

i’m currently addicted to tumblr because i have followed accounts that post a lot about MBLAQ and i’m dying to see each and every one of it because i’m enjoying doing it. i remember myself rambling about my friends, saying that they’re way overboard about idolizing their boy groups and that they’re not really into reality lately, but now i feel little by little what their happiness means whenever they talk about their idols and the way they make so much effort just to see them such as download a lot of pictures, watching and also downloading a lot of videos and movies, even print out pictures and paste in on their notebooks for them to see in class, for inspiration perhaps.

well i regret thinking that it’s easy to separate instantly from the idols they’ve wanted and loved so badly. i never knew it could be this hard. i can’t even explain to myself why i feel like this.

whenever i see my friends scream whenever they see their idols on a video, sing a particular song of that group in chorus with other fans, the need to buy accessories and apparel connected to the group they like and wanting to make friends with other fans, i just sigh and ask myself why they do that. i thought it was too much for them to buy things online and make a group about it on various sites, i thought that what they were doing is becoming a bad habit to them.

but lately, i felt i’ve changed since i knew MBLAQ. i felt the need to see them each and every day. i want to sing their songs aloud, and i want others to join me as well because it’s more enjoyable than singing it solo. and currently, i’m wanting to buy things which are related to them but i have no reason why. it just felt right, it just makes me feel happy that i’m doing it.

i cannot believe MBLAQ can do this to me. i never thought a group could entirely change my life, turn my emotions around and make me feel so close to them, even though they’re not really reachable.

i feel sorry for my friends whom i felt so bad with at certain times that i could not understand them entirely. i never knew that this is the impact they’ve been feeling from their idol groups which is why they’re acting that way. i feel that the thing i’m feeling is less than half of what they are feeling because i’ve been just an A+ since this month, but for them, years flew and they’re still head over heels for their idol groups.

i’m not really in a clear situation right now. all things are crowded in my head. these are just few thoughts that i understand clearly.

 

new best frieeeend :3

helloooooo! okay, i know yes yes, i’m too late again for an update. it always takes me a week to update lately. i’m sooorry! i’m too busy watching mblaq videos and cramming papers, as i’ve said in my last post.

but i have a lot of random stories to tell you, including having my new best friend :>

first, lookie at this picture.

pizzaaaaa <3

those are from Pizza Hut. my mom bought them last Saturday, February 25, 2012 because we have no snacks at home and she was persuaded to buy due to the buy one take one promo for only 399 Php, which is still a reasonable price. the story behind this is that, one box of that pizza was consumed only by me. it just so happens that the day mom bought the pizzas was the day i was doing a movie marathon all by myself, and all of you very well know that you don’t really notice how much you’ve eaten until you’ve eaten almost all of the food you’re eating. it’s like eating a bucket of popcorn, you just continuously munch and you’ll realize it’s all gone when  you don’t touch anymore popcorn in the bucket at all, well that’s how it happened with me.

but chill, i didn’t eat a single flavor only. of course i get pizzas from both boxes, alternately. i just noticed that i ate too much when i counted the pizzas remaining for the rest of my family. there were 8 slices in each box, making it 16 in total. and there were only 8 pizzas left when i realized that i ate too much. therefore, i didn’t eat dinner that night because i was so full, even breakfast the morning after :))

the movie i was watching by the way was No Other Woman, starring Derek Ramsey, Cristine Reyes and Anne Curtis. it was a good movie, the characters were portrayed naturally and the movie was plausible. it’s just that anne’s freckles and face and defects were too exposed, such as her small boobies and stuff. and of course, cristine’s sexy body was really shown in the movie. an innocent image suits her very well, surprisingly. and derek? his acting is superb, and his body?  flawless :>

okay. moving on to story number 2. as i’ve told everyone in my recent post, i’m saying i’m a certified A+ now. i like watching mblaq videos and there’s not a day that i haven’t watched one video and heard their song since i started “fangirling.” even though i have papers due the day after, i still make time to watch at least one videos, which turns out to be two or more in the end.

and thanks to my friend, teti, who’s also probably an A+, she let me borrow her mblaq albums during class and overnight and i didn’t hesitate to watch it as soon as i got home.

mblaq albums!

joonie in Oh Yeah MV

it’s so deadly to watch HD mblaq MV’s in a wide flat screen tv :3 i almost died watching the MV’s. everything would’ve been better if there were english subs included in their “in the making” video. it’s sad that i can’t understand a thing they’re saying, it should’ve been an asian special edition, which should be understood by asians. but still, all in all, i just blushed and screamed my heart out. my little sister’s been singing with me too :)

there’s just one thing that disturbed me in the video. THIS PART

WHAT

yes i know, i’ve been only a fan for less than a month, but THAT’S MIIIIIR! correct me if i’m really wrong though, but HE’S NOT JOOON, HE’S MIIIIIR.

okay enough of that. next story!:))

zoo3 for me is my most boring lecture class. we’re just less than 50 in the class i think and the subject is just so full of uncommon terminologies about animals that it makes us so bored. but last meeting was kinda weird. probably the teacher felt that we were getting bored in her subject, she showed unusual slides.

spider!

we were talking about insects, specifically arthropods and after the discussion of those written in the slides, random spiders will come out and the teacher will go like “awoooo spideeer”. well i bursted out laughing because i did not expect that to happen but too bad for my classmates, they probably didn’t appreciate what the teacher did :P

and lastly! about my new best friend!:)

next month, probably 2 weeks from now, i’m turning 18. my relatives promised me to buy me a new laptop which is why i tried searching for a good model that will last long with me. i’ve posted that i wanted a Dell Inspiron 14R N4110.

and just yesterday, February 26, 2012, it came into my life <3

BLOO

best wallpaper \m/

it came to me really suddenly. i attended a party with my grandmother that day, to of course chaperone her that time then my lola asked me if we were going to Festival Supermall in Alabang that day so we could purchase my laptop already.

well i was expecting a laptop but not this early. i thought i would have it a week before my birthday or even weeks after but gladly i have it noooow!

it’s name is Bloo. i miss my lappytoppy but i know Bloo will be much nicer to me :)

it has Intel 2nd gen i5 processor, 2GB RAM, 500GB Memory, OS Windows7 Home Basic :)

it’s running pretty well for me, i hope we’ll be best of friends from now on :)

dormant :<

oh golly, i feel so bad. :( i’ve neglected my wordpress account for a while, it’s just that these past weeks were heavy and to top it off, i think i’ve found a new love again :”>

yes yes i know, just chill and i’ll tell you guys about everything i’ve been busy about and up to these days.

well firstly, last week was the annual UP February Fair and of course, being an org woman, i’m responsible to visit there often and do some org duties. well i kinda wanna skip talking about that part, i’m pissed off about the organization i’ve joined. it’s not that i regret joining it, it’s just the people inside it are not really what i expected them to be, i’ve finally realized that all people in organizations are mostly the same. it’s not about the activities we’ve done, it’s the bad habits they have, which i’ve been trying to evade all my life. and i think this one decision i made just got me closer to the things i’ve been avoiding. bottomline is, as much as possible, i will never try to drink alcoholic beverages nor even plan to smoke in my life! except the drinking part, probably i could do that, but i know that this is not the time for me yet. i’m pretty sure it won’t do any good to me and i will not lose anything if i didn’t try those things, i might even gain something from it. but because of what i’ve done and decided, it’ll be so difficult for me to do that, especially the seniors in the org who are really hard drinkers and stuff. ugghhh, the gore. i’ll just stop it there.

 

next thing, i’ve been too busy these past few weeks. on studying? NAAAAH, on falling in love :> i stumbled upon an icon that made my heart skip a beat again, brings back the looove i feel in my heart :> who is this heavenly guy? none other than MBLAQ’s Lee Chang Sun or Lee Joon as he’s called :”>

joon-oppaaa :3

remember the time i told you guys that i’m back on going crazy about Rain? well that event took a reaaaally sudden turn. When i started to try fangirling on Super Junior and watched variety shows about them, Rain appeared with them and made my heart switch to Rain. and now because Rain has established this group called MBLAQ, there are a lot of shows that included both Rain and MBLAQ members which made me know about Lee Joon. <3

He’s such a humorous guy. he’s exactly my type of guy :”> my ideal man! yes i know, usually girls’ ideal men aren’t really followed when they fall in love with a realistic guy, but to describe what my ideal guy looks like and acts like? it’s exactly lee joon!:)

firstly, his hair! oh golly, so spikey and full of angst, types of hair i most like! the first thing i notice in boys are their hair, i don’t know why, like a fetish or something.

next, his body. OMG HE HAS ABS, LEMME SHOW YOU

*dies*

his biceps are just the right size that makes girls crazy over him. he’s so hot, whenever i see him, i just feel butterflies in my stomach and i smile to myself, i feel so crazy right now!

and oh, of course, his deadly smile :”> HE LOOKS SO CUUUUUTE.

smileeey :3

and look at that mole on the left side of his neck? my goooolly, it so complements him, he’s uurrghhh!>3<

anyway, but what i like about him is his humorous attitude. he has this exact mix of confidence in him, he’s such a fun guy, he seems fun to be with judging the way he acts in variety shows, his laugh is so contagious, he’s just too real :”> it seems he doesn’t hide his true self even when on air. as a famous idol, who would even admit that he doesn’t take a bath much? who would happily commit math problems in a show? and laugh about his ripped pants on air just to satisfy the audience because he was performing too eagerly? he’s just one of a kiiind :>

aegyooo :3

so thanks to Lee Joon-oppa, i feel so better now :) i feel so inlove again and i’m loving these kinds of feelings with me :> 

well so much for my lee joon-oppa, i have another story to tell! i’ve been too inactive these days that all my stories were piling up little by little.

just yesterday, i decided to have a haircut with my mom. i chose to put on full bangs since i’ve been whining about my wide forehead. whenever i take pictures with my friends, the first thing i see on me is my wide, shiny forehead and it irritates me. my friends even tease me about it, and it’s really about time for me to change my look and have a haircut because i haven’t had my haircut since last year july i think?

and look at the outcome!:)) it isn’t really bad though but i’m starting to miss my old hair :(

without the hair band

and my tied hair

having full bangs is such a stress in the head :| well it irritates me that it pokes my eyes and it’s so hot that my forehead’s full with beads of sweat most of the time. it’s also bothersome to keep it neat from time to time. >.< but i think i’m not really used to having bangs that’s why i feel like this, well i’ll see from this day on. :>

and oh, before i go, a funny short story :))

UPLB, being a provincial university majoring on agricultural studies, houses numerous domesticated animals. these animals are usually for the students, for experiment and study purposes. it’s just too funny and unusual for a college student to encounter a horse on the way to the gym :))

horse beside copeland gym

of course, elite universities such as DLSU, UST and ADMU will never have horses, cows, goats and other animals roaming around campus, but in UP, it’s really an entirely different story!:P especially in UPLB. :)